We are Numbers
We all got back our PSAT's. I felt pretty bad when the guidance man gave a big, drawn out speech about how important these are. He said that the last section, the writing section, "Won't count. No colleges look at that because it's new." But what he really meant was that it wasn't important.
I felt even worse in physics class when my fellow junior classmates told eachother their scores-- theirs being well over 1700, while mine rested at a mere 1440. Yeah, that made my day. One more bullet to my chest of intelligence. The only thing I felt good about was the fact that I scored 82% in the writing section, or in other words, the "section that doesn't count."
It amazes me how numbers, yes, numbers, determines a person, especially their future.
I mean really, why should it matter if a person is nice, or outgoing, or talented in a performing art, or a great cheff, or a beautiful singer, or a gracefull dancer, or a brilliant writer... no.. none of those things matter, of course. It's only the numbers on a sheet of paper that matters, right?
It especially hurts me because there's never an option of "Art". It's as if anyone who wants to be an artist, or a writer, is shunned upon, because it isn't a steady, stable job. It is too risky for anyone with a normal dream to chase after.
But it makes me happy. Even if I'm not the best of the best at it, even if I'm not a 1700+ PSAT scorer, even if the world puts down my dream... In the end, it's what makes me happy, and that should be all that matters for me. Me, and no one else.
I felt even worse in physics class when my fellow junior classmates told eachother their scores-- theirs being well over 1700, while mine rested at a mere 1440. Yeah, that made my day. One more bullet to my chest of intelligence. The only thing I felt good about was the fact that I scored 82% in the writing section, or in other words, the "section that doesn't count."
It amazes me how numbers, yes, numbers, determines a person, especially their future.
I mean really, why should it matter if a person is nice, or outgoing, or talented in a performing art, or a great cheff, or a beautiful singer, or a gracefull dancer, or a brilliant writer... no.. none of those things matter, of course. It's only the numbers on a sheet of paper that matters, right?
It especially hurts me because there's never an option of "Art". It's as if anyone who wants to be an artist, or a writer, is shunned upon, because it isn't a steady, stable job. It is too risky for anyone with a normal dream to chase after.
But it makes me happy. Even if I'm not the best of the best at it, even if I'm not a 1700+ PSAT scorer, even if the world puts down my dream... In the end, it's what makes me happy, and that should be all that matters for me. Me, and no one else.
posted by TR5Taryn at 3:31 PM
2 Comments:
Don't let a less than perfect PSAT score dampen your dream! And don't ever let anyone tell you that writing or art or creativity "doesn't count"!!!!
And speaking of dreams... you asked about the weirdest dream I've ever had... I have weird dreams all the time, usually about the people I see everyday at school. Just a couple of weeks ago I had a dream that Mr. S., our beloved principal, was at a party I was attending and was complaining to me that he got demoted and was a math teacher again.
I really can't remember the weirdest dream I've ever had, but I'm sure I'll think of it eventually. I used to have a recurring dream about being in a Nazi prison camp and digging my own grave. That was pretty awful.
As for psychics, I generally tend to be rather cynical, but I love the TV show Medium and I think the woman that it is based on really has a gift. I wouldn't discount the possibility of certain people having powers beyond the norm. As Shakespeare said, "There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio, than are dreamt of in your philosophy."
PSAT's are always lame. Don't let 'em get you down. Oh, and I forgot the name of the band/group or whatever that you told me about. What's their name again??
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